reflections

I've got goals, but they are more 5 year's time goals. Both myself and my work are not mature enough to attack those goals yet. I am happy in my silence. I am learning and evolving.

-2011

the end.

this will be the last post on here

from now on i will be posting on


http://nhrb.tumblr.com/


this blog had to come to an end. sorry

if you have only just found this blog. start at the begining, click here and work your way back.

hope to see you all later, have a great new year and lets hope the next decade is brighter than the last.

much love x

where i dwell

obessed

Get yourself to a local music store and pick up a copy of this. the record contains some incredible hip hop with artists such as mos def, NOE, luda, RZA, ODB, raekwon and Q-tip. Even if your not a rap/hip-hop fan, you will love this. It sounds like that awesome warm thursday night in summer at that amazing new york city bar with great friends and new girls who arent only cool, they are cute too, that night was crazy, it was when everyone got a round of drinks in and you all left late, all got laid, got up early in the sunlight but had no hangover and cruised to meet up for a lovely friday and never stopped smiling even though you had the same clothes fromthe day/night before.

yeah....ive had those days!

Its sure to be a classic, much like the new Mos record. I used to be a sucker for my 12" crate collection, now I'm getting into my CD collection because ive been archiving everything to my external HD.

last name ever, first name greatest

so recently ive been working on building my portfolio to include more men. this time last year i could not even imagine shooting menswear. part of me doesn't connect with guys on the same level as I do with women. Either way. D1 Models have been kind enough to let me test with the men on there books. It's also given me the opertunity to shoot in London more and also take a much more hand on role in the styling. Ive found myself developing a very strong style. almost romantic. The massive wet blanket that i am has come across in my images. Masculinity romantised. Soft lighting, crisp lines and tailored lines. I have began utilizing natural light, shooting more film and finding myself in love with soft high contrast black & white images.

this means that the photographers who I looked up before have taken a back seat to my new inspirations. Im now applying for more and more assisting work and spending 2 out of 4 weeks in London per month. Its really opened my eyes to a whole body of work that i previously have missed. Its great because with my Women's work I've discovered that i have become much more adventurous. im trying daring lighting, communicating more with the model about mood and concept instead of posing the model into the ideal position almost as a sculpture would.

++++++++OH YEAH!++++++++

I almost forgot. Ive recently found myself listening to a whole load of old rock, punk and hardcore that i used to love. Ive also found a huge stash of records that pretty much document my attempt at becoming a gangster rap dj. I WAS 13 years old! needless to say ive found myself becoming inspired by a whole bunch of music that i know word for word but haven't listened to in years.

++++++++THE ANTI CHRIST!++++++++

beginning pretty soon is a new project on my part. if you dont know i have quite an obsession for catholic art. particular of god wrath. my tattoo's depict such evens as jesus's last moments. i have a cross which is exploded to look like a graphic net for a cube. ie religion puts you in a box.

anywhoooo..... due to the fact that i am styling alot of my own work now. I feel like taking on a bit of a fun time challenge and styling. durrr.

So ill keep you updated. Hope you enjoy the work and dont forget to check www.nhrb.co.uk for new work.

facial fun times

i am aware that my hair cut isnt the only thing that frequently changes, my facial hair is a fucking nightmere. anyway i grew a brew for about a month tops, but decided to get rid of it. however i thought i would have a little fun with it.

i am extremely worried that i wont look as farmer-ish driving around in the landrover now. but the hell with it.

ALL ON MY OWN part 1

a collection of hair cutzzz!

Ok just because i received a bucket load of emails about this, i have not ended the blog, i just haven't had the access to the internet that i wish to have.

Alot of things have changed in my life and i promise that soon enough this blog and the better than we expected blog will be back in full swing.


expect alot of exciting new photos, stories and internet trash to be splashed across the pages of this here blog. If you havent already head back to my first ever post and work your way forward.

thanks again for the support and love

BETTER THAN WE EXPECTED

http://betterthanweexpected.wordpress.com/

this is the new project cooked up by myself and photographer karina lax

its basically a visual diary

go have a look see

hats hats hats

photographed & styled by Nicholas Bentham

model- Anna Lisa Lappenkueper

hats/jewellery provided by THE SECRET BOUDOIR.
glasses models own.

07 Aug 2009

shot on fuji superia x-tra 400 120 & illford 400 b&w 120

what the hell has happened to myspace

beside logging on to book tattoo appointments with Woody (www.myspace.com/woodzo) i never really check my myspace page anymore.

I think that in a bid to compete with facebook/twitter/etc they lost the plot, throwing everything you dont need or may have needed into the equation. myspace is and always will be a fundamental tool for teenage masturbation. jesus if im honest, i still go though my friends requests and look at the cute girls pages, in the underwear, only 16, young, soft skin, bright eyes filled with excitement as the stare down the lens of there camera phone. oh your so naughty arnt you "xmissyxx_00".

problem is after everyone jumped ship to faceache, your left with peado's and 12/14 year olds with floppy hair. OH AND BANDS! fuck i mean come on guys. myspace was amazing because it gave you a platform to become whoever you wanted. bands got famous, emo became pop, fat girls looked hot! myspace was simple, you made a profile, took a photo from above your head, wrote a little piece about how utterly amazing the shit little things you do everyday are, added a few good looking people from your local area, and received picture comments. every so often you would find true love and have pictures splashed all over your myspace of each other declaring how perfect you are for each other, that you'll be together forever. then one day you'll either see a picture comment from a new love interest (with better hair or a better placed tattoo) which will drive into revenge blogging about how hurt you are with a million bulletins. sometimes this will happen just because after 4 months of telling everyone you love each other, you finaly meet, well not face to face because you spotted her from 200 yards away and what you saw was not the retouched, buxom beauty from photo 37 of 248. its a hideous create that if you where 4ft taller wouldnt even look like the photos youve been furiously masturbating to for the past 6 weeks. it makes sence, so thats why she was always laid down on webcam and wouldnt bend over and stick 2 fingers in her ass. fucking bitch caught me out!

now with all these new gizmo's on myspace i doubt kids have the same fun. facebook is to real, its to personal, there is no air of mystique and twitter is to bloody fast paced. i hope myspace take it back to the way it was, simple elegant, maybe then ill head back and swap picture comments for picture comments.

here are a few of my favorite myspace photos over the years from when i joined in 2004.
www.myspace.com/nhrb

istealstarbucksmugs.blogspot.com

my hobbies are;

-drinking tea
-living without toilet roll for as long as possible
-appearing rich when actually penniless
-counting 2 pence pieces
-living off others
-big brother
-getting in moods because others succeed while i stay stuck in a creative rutt

and finally

-stealing starbucks mugs


ive decided it is worth fucking off the other ones (although 2 would make a good blog and 5&7 are what this blog is all about) and writing a blog about my problem. its been about 3 years since i stole my first mug from starbucks. it was, i might add, out of necessity. I had just moved into a new apartment, i had forgot to take cups/mugs/cutlery/plates etc from my mothers house. i was in starbucks, i pondered the thought of going home and having a nice cup of tetley tea while watching tv in my brand new apartment, i decided swiftly to "bag the cup".

now baging the cup is a term that i use for when you slip the cup from the table and it falls softly into an open bag.

read more on the other blog

its business time, its business tiiiiiimmmmmeeee

im starting a new game of screen shot texts

dork magazine contributing fashion story preview

so here is a preview from dork magazine issue 3 that will be dropping this week

www.dorkzine.com

photography Nicholas Bentham www.nhrb.co.uk
styling Nicki Gillion @ nemasis
make up artist Nancy Spencer Makeupmanchester.com
models sophie @DK and danny @nemasis


also starting monday i will be starting my cigs and water diet

the night before my birthday

i went round to jons, for some reason i was kept out of the living room, suddenly i was suprised with a cake that jazz had made!!!

me and jon stayed up chating and watching stupid internet shit before i wandered home slightly drunk but very happy